Here is a deepening inquiry into the self in the realm of love; a meditation on the ecstasy of the queer self that transcends conventional binaries. Between confessions, dreams and alternative lives, an underlying fear for the partner suffering from that inability to surrender motivates these pages. Fear is a burden that unravels and transforms into opportunities for edification, and therefore more and more love. Between the lover and the mystic self, this poem replays, exists, relents.